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this entry specially delicated to Hui ci. =P
officially slacked for 3 weeks. not much progress.
i had two job offers, but i rejected.
i felt a little pity to one of the rejection, as it was quite interesting and i actually thought of trying out in another industry. Furthermore i would be able to travel and the exposure is completely different. *sigh.
Result out. . . .
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two more days and it closed a chapter of my life.
complicated feel, i know i am going to miss the place.
i felt really sad to leave. i cant bear to but i have to.
why so..
life is always filled with diffcicult selection. no doubt people said ‘ if you don’t wish to do something which you dislike, there is no one who is able to force’ i think that’s all crap.
gotta take a break, i have the urge to travel alone, all by myself..
doesnt matter about the destination.
perhaps it would be great.
i do wish i could have the courage to pack and go.
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last paper: i believe i would fail and have to repeat the whole damn module.
packed my luggage till 3am, was nt feeling well and tot of having a short nap till morning then revised thru again. but well things just didnt went well for me.
Ding dong here and there for the trip thingy and the outcome was the trip cancelled, is not about the cancelling, (I felt bad too as I am unable to keep him company). I know we have all been looking forward to it! *sigh*
I cant concentrate on my revision. and end result I am going to prepare for repeating the module.
It was really a bad day for me, I flared, I irritated myself, I am annoyed by my stupidity.
I lost my earrings, the lift break down, screwed on my paper.
What a day to end. I am really depressed.
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time checked, its 4.17am now.
mugging session. but nothing nothing went in to my brain.
3 more days to exam, and i know nuts about the module!. . .
i miss those days whereby those crazy ppl (jh,ys,heli), we will get together and revised.
hungry we will then walked to Mac or coffee shop for supper. . but nw am all alone fighting against the battle. no motivation at all. Not even a little!
I’m like a solider with no weapon without any fighting spirit. .
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mixed feeling
23 May gonna marked the end of my day at g*w.
The thought of bidding goodbye are never easy.
I know am going to miss this place. I had a tough and unforgettable lesson taught thou.
but it have been a fruitful, enriching lesson. It can never be learnt in the textbook.
Ehs. .I started to reflect and ponder when I first worked; I came in pretty much as a blank paper, but I take away with me more than this paper can fill. In the paper itself, it filled with sorrows and happiness. But very much happy moment overrules whichever bad encounters.
I sincerely appreciate people whom taught me bits and pieces along the way. *thanks*
I am clueless what my life gonna be after which. Where will I be landed to? What other kind of dismay would I encounter? I afraid but at the same time looking forward to what is coming.
Reality is cruel!! True or false?
till now I can’t convince myself that the society is heartless and merciless.
I still believe Friendship makes prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it
biting the bullet
keep at being an enthusiastic energizer bunny.
NEVER SAY DIE.
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A Prayer for You
A thousand words in prayer
Were sent your way today
To keep you from the cold
And shadow you from the rain
I wrapped it up in fine silk
And placed a final kiss
I handed it to the professional
Who would see to it that it arrived safe
He promised it would get to you
No one could get in the way
And promised me that He’d do
Everything I asked Him in my prayer
It started with a “Hey God!”
“Will you keep my Ai Qing safe?”
“Protect her from all harm”
“And give her strength, confidence and amazing grace”
Then it went, “Oh also,”
“Could you do one thing for me?”
“Tell her that mine she’ll always be”
I also wrote in big bold letters
“Oh!!” “One more important thing!”
“Could you be with her and hold her”
“Wrap your arms around her for me?”
“When she feels like crying”
“Could you be my hands for her?”
“She’s sick, so yeah, be careful”
“Don’t be too rough, okay?”
“Easy on the whispers”
“She needs to sleep too you know!”
“Give her good dreams of happiness”
“Sorrow…Oh God no!”
“When you talk with her”
“Comfort and make her smile?”
“Crack those good old jokes you know”
“The ones you did for me”
“When people wants to do malicious intent on her”
“Use your power, please, please???”
“Don’t let her out of her bed”
“…Well, unless she needs to pee”
“Remind her that she’s special”
“To You, and don’t forget me!!”
“Tell her that she’s important”
“And forever she will be”
“And if you could, Do you think you can”
“Take away most of her pain?”
“She’s just so cute and loveable”
“Doesn’t deserve to be this way!”
“Just treat her like a princess”
“Cause remember? She’s more than that in heaven!”
“Your perfect angel down here”
“In pain and in dire need”
“Be gentle when you hug her too”
“I know that she’s so huggable”
“But even though she’s so trustable”
“She’s tender right now, believe me it’s true!”
And then I ended with a, “Hey?”
“Remember that entire prayer okay”
“It’s reeeeally special, from a to z”
“Promise you won’t forget? Do it for me?”
And when I saw that great big smile on her face
I was reassured
That God would not forget my prayer
He’d make sure you heard it loud and clear
So I smiled back and with my pen
I wrote down my last three words
I wrote them to you, my dear
“I Love you” one, two, three
I ended with an “Amen”
And I wrote my name in signature
And let God do the rest which was His part
I told God, “Here’s a bunch of hugs!”
“And a billion and more kisses”
“She’s already got my heart”
“Just make sure she knows for sure our next life!”
And in my special envelope
I gently placed my gifts
To you and only to you my dear
Not one, I made sure, was missed
I placed it in God’s great big hands
And blew to Him a kiss
“Okay, that was for you God”
“Since I love you too”
He hugged me back and smiled
“I really got to go!”
He said as he hopped on his white chariot
the one that would take Him to your home
“Bye God, and be careful!”
“Mr. Satan has got some wits”
“Nah!” God said casually
“Satan is a kid”
“I trust you God, I really do”
“In all you do and say”
“See, my Ai Qing taught me patience”
“And how to smile and wait”
“I know you have a plan”
“In everything you do!”
God smiled with a chuckle
“Ahh, my secret spoiled! Oh but yes I do!”
He was just about to take off
Into the starry sky
But I grabbed His arm and giggled
“I just wanna thank You”
“For sending me Your angel”
“For blessing me with his love”
“For giving me a life”
“A reason to live and breathe”
“And thanks so much trusting”
“That I will do my best”
“To care for her and be there”
“And you know…he-he, all the rest!”
“She’s just so amazing”
“I’m blessed to have known her”
“Thanks God, you’re the greatest!”
“I’m so thankful, I tell no lie”
“I won’t let you down”
“I promise!”
“Just wait and you will see!”
“I care for her so much you know”
“To harm her would make me bleed”
“Thanks so much God! I owe you!”
“For all eternity”
God looked as though he was happy
Proud, excited, pleased
“I really did a find job, didn’t I?”
He said with a look of glee
I winked and gave a whistle
He whistled back with me
“Okay I must be on my way!”
“You don’t want this prayer to be delayed”
“I’ll answer your prayers in good time”
“Trust Me, believe, and soon you will see”
I nodded my head in consent
And waved to Him goodbye
And watched Him vanish deep into
The moonlit starry sky
I have this feeling that right now
God is at your door
Or perhaps since He wants to come unnoticed
To your window He will go
And in your bed you’re laying
His presence you will feel
Surrounding you with warmth unknown
You’ll probably hear Him sing
And that is how it happened
How I sent my prayer
I wrote this note to tell you
That I know God is always near
I love you heaps and billions
Countless as the stars in the sky
And not a second that you’re not in my mind
Never passes me by.
PS: Whatever is said to you is from the bottom of my heart
And breathe, my real reason to breathe and my daily survival!
With lots of hugs and kisses. I pray everyday for you
* Thankyou from mi to you *
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Survivor game:
People are so tremendous vicious.
I truly understand what is survivor game like, how it was being played. It was really freaking tired. They don’t feel it?
Human are treated as chess being manipulate around to harm others in order for them to get what they want.
What the hell is wrong with their minds?? Have these ever came across their mind, what if their loved ones are on the above situation, how on earth would they feel?
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I learnt my lesson. In a freaking hard-hitting way.
Never in life would I believe that I would get involved in all the shit.
It was a tough lesson, a lesson that made me felt so depressed, no warm and love in reality.
I believe in karma, well what goes around comes around.
I owe him an apology. I believe I would have no chance saying to him.
I’m really sorry.
Lesson learnt, NEVER to trust anyone.
My dad once taught me, the closest friends are the one who get to hurt you while not your enemy.
Nothing is true in this world.
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Just by seeing wedding photos even people whom I do not know, I feel delighted for them.
the kind of feeling is so sweet and warm.
but well reality is cruel. faced it
